Sunday, November 4, 2012

HELLO!!!!

My name is Cayle.  I am a mother of two.  I am the writer of this blog.....
(I thought it might be beneficial to re-introduce myself since it has been so long since you have heard from me!)
So, obviously my baby boy started kindergarten.  I did survive, and I am alive and well.  I am not going to lie.... it was a very hard week (or two.. or three).  But, we have all adjusted and we are doing just fine.  You would have thought that I would have so much time to keep you "up to date" since I don't have a job and both of my children are in school.  Well, I have been so busy!  I feel like my head is spinning and it is hard to even think straight much less get my thoughts in order long enough to write a post.
Why am I so busy?  Oh!!  I am so glad you asked...
I help up at school (both of them) a LOT.  I really basically have a part time job at school, I just don't get paid for it!  (I love it!)
I have started working out.  I mean really trying to be good about it. 
I have been doing lots of research to figure out what I am going to do for a career.  Of course this includes looking into different college programs to go back and finish my degree.
I am co-facilitating another Bible Study... and I am still a mom, a wife, a cook, and a cleaning lady (not a good one... but, one non the less).
I guess all of this put together keeps me very very very busy!
But, enough about me...
THE KIDS:
They are so wonderful, amazing, smart, kind, loving, polite, well behaved kids.  I am so blessed to be a part of their lives.  There are so many things that I have not put on here in the last 2.5 months.  Jaxon is loving school and is doing a wonderful job at reading!!  It has been so much fun to see him take off!  Tatum's school year is ok.  It is not our best year yet.. but, I figure there will be years like that and there are lessons to learn in the "bad" years too.  It is not "bad" because of Tatum....she is still supper smart and at the top of her class!  I am so proud of her!
The kids still struggled with strep so bad.  They ended up having strep every month since tonsils and adenoids were taken out.  That meant strep for 7 straight months!!!!!!!  Yes it is shocking... and frustrating.  We ended up taking them to a specialist.  He put our whole family on antibiotics for 21 days.  He and I both agreed that we had never gotten rid of whatever strep strand we got right after surgery.  So far we are without strep and I think we just past our usual once a month time frame.  I really really really hope this last!! 
Tatum is taking gymnastics and love love loves it!  She was hooked after she watched the olympics (just like most 7 year old girls I am sure!).  She is such a girly girl.  She still loves everything "bling".  She is very particular about what she wears and how her hair is done.  Tatum loves her nails being done and she loves to accessorize!!  Tatum also loves Taylor Swift and loves singing her songs very loud... no matter where we are!
Jaxon just got done with soccer.  He is so very funny.  Some days he says he likes it... most days he says he doesn't.  If you watch him you would guess it is probably not his sport.  I think he is more of a baseball boy.  I think I will just be honest now and say YAY!!!!  I like baseball sooooo much more!!!  I loves being a boy and doing anything "boyish".  He just got done having a boys weekend down at the "place" for opening hunting season.  He was on cloud nine!
I am tired.... so, I am going to say goodnight.  I will try and post again soon with lots of pictures when my connection to the internet is not the speed of a snail!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

An end of a chapter...

Can be exciting.  It can be surreal, sad, scary, or invigorating.  It can be an end of a chapter because of growth... or death.  I would dare say that an end of a chapter of life (good or bad) many times leads to anxiety.

(From wikipedia:)
 Anxiety (also called angst or worry) is a psychological and physiological state characterized by somatic, emotional, cognitive, and behavioral components.[2] It is the displeasing feeling of fear and concern.... anxiety can create feelings of fear, worry, uneasiness, and dread. ... The physical effects of anxiety may include heart palpitations, tachycardia, muscle weakness and tension, fatigue, nausea, chest pain, shortness of breath, headache, stomach aches, or tension headaches

Well, lets see if I have anxiety...
Do I have "displeasing feelings of fear and concern"?  Check.  Heart palpitations?  Check.  Tension?  Check.  Fatigue?  Check.  Headache?  Check.  Stomach aches?  Check.  Tension headaches?  Check.

Ok everyone (all two of you..) I think we can safely say that I am having a little anxiety over this chapter of my life ending. 

What chapter????

Well, seven and a half years ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl.  19 short months later.. a handsome baby boy.  I decided long before I gave birth that I would drop anything and sacrifice everything to raise them myself.  To be their primary care giver.  I knew it meant sacrificing things that society as a whole deem important:  nice clothes, nice cars, nice home, big vacations, showers (just kidding.... sort of..), etc.  I later found out it meant sacrificing adult conversation.  :)  It took a toll sometimes on my mental health...and definitely on our bank account...but, I WOULD CHOOSE THIS PATH ALL OVER AGAIN IN A HEARTBEAT.  (This was my choice.. what I wanted.. I am NOT condemning or judging anyone that chose different.)  So, for seven and a half years I have been a mom.  Just a mom.  I have changed diapers, read books, played games, cuddled, disciplined, taught, and LOVED. 
Monday, August 27th, at 8 am that chapter will be closed.  I know that I am not done "being a mom".  But having one go to school for the last 2 years I also know.. everything changes.  My baby is 5... and it is time for school.  My days will go from 24-7 with my babes to waking up.. rushing to get ready for school.. going to school.. picking up at three... doing homework.. making dinner... giving baths... and putting them to bed.  The days will go so fast.  They feel so short.. so rushed.

Yes, I have had anxiety.. Yes, I have had tears.  I know there will be more to come.  I will say though, that every time a negative thought pops in my head about school I TRY to re-direct my thoughts...  I think about the fact that Tatum and Jaxon are a minority in this world to even be able to attend a school and learn to read.  Not only are they able to attend... it is a fairly "safe" environment.  I think about a sweet little boy who is Jaxon's age AND shares his name, that has TWO brain tumors.  All he wants is to go to school.  Even though his mom wants him to herself (rightly so), she wants to make him happy more.  She is doing everything she can to make it possible for him to go to school (figuring out medical issues that would need to be addressed at school...).  I think about these things, and I know.. I see so clearly how blessed we are.  Does it take away my sadness?  Not completely.  I think thats ok.  Does it help with my perspective?  YES.  Me noticing that we are beyond blessed doesn't negate the fact that I am sad about this chapter in my life coming to a close.  I do hope however that the blessings help me have a healthy view on my situation.

I know that we will not only be ok, we will be happy.  I also know that it wont take long for me to genuinely like this new "phase" or chapter of life as well.  But I will ALWAYS cherish these last seven years.
Thank you Monte for always being supportive and making this happen.


Monday, July 23, 2012

Summer week #6 and #7:

-killed two black widow spiders
 
-enjoyed good company while kids played at play-group

-5 days of swim lessons for the kids

- kids fought

- kids played

- had a cute little baby frog on my porch

-drove to Denton (5 hours away), went to a wedding for 4 hrs, then drove back to Marble Falls (another 4 hours) all in one day!

- Monte and kids saw a bobcat  on our property

-hung out with sweet friends

- cleaned out a TON

- had a coral snake in my yard 

-organized a softball game for Monte's bday

-played the (awesome) softball game!

- kids were diagnosed with strep (this is the 6th time in 6 months.. SINCE we took tonsils and adenoids out)

- swam in our pool
................

Want to remember from these two weeks:

- how my kids say, "pause like a movie" if they have to run to the bathroom or get a drink in the middle of playing together.

- when Tatum saw a gross bug on the porch she yelled, "Jax, look! Its guts are out of its ADDomen!"

-when I asked Jax why he didn't sleep in later he said, "hmmm... maybe its cause I had a short dream?"

-Tatum heard a song she liked on the radio and asked us to "roll that song up!"

-Jaxon's sweet little hand in mine when walking back from checking on Tatum's fish

-seeing Tatum drive the mule ALL BY HERSELF!

- how Jax looks when he grabs his clubs and plays golf in the yard

-Tatum praying for everyone who doesn't have "a family, a home, toys, and food"

-Jaxon praying that "he grows up to be a nice boy"
 
- honestly every moment.. even the not so great ones.... this summer is slipping by so quickly and without God's help I would hardly be able to stand it.


 


Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Summer week #5!

What an exciting week!! 
Tatum was reading to Jaxon out of her chapter book (like she always does).  While she was still reading, Jaxon came out of her room and said, "Mom, I want to read my own book."  I said that was fine.  He ran to his room and grabbed a book.  I assumed he would just look at the pictures since he doesn't know how to read yet (I am a FIRM believer in not pushing kids before school, I believe in letting them be kids while they can).  Anyway, he sat down with the book he picked and started sounding out a word!!  My heart started racing and I knew he was ready.  I told Jaxon to wait and I went and grabbed Tatum's early readers from kinder and brought them out.  I handed him one and told him to try it.  HE READ IT!!!!!!!!!  He asked for another.  He read that too.. then another.. then another.. we went through probably 7 books.  I cried the whole time.  Just another sign of how old he is. 


Friday, July 6, 2012

Summer Week #4.. (a little late)

What a week.  I thought I "got a few things done" last week.  What a joke!  Talk about being productive..  The end of this week was a whirlwind of chores.  I may not like cleaning out closets (that haven't been cleaned out in 6 years) or cleaning under beds, but I LOVE the way it looks and feels when it is done.  Cleaning out is truly good for the soul.  I am convinced when your home is cluttered your life feels the same... I found this funny quote, "Present Me is tired of holding onto Future Me’s crap. Future Me will just have to deal with it." haha.. I love it! I have plenty more to clean out and get rid of to continue simplifying.  But, it was a GREAT start!
This week was Monte's vacation!  It was so nice to have him with us all week long.  It went so fast :(.  We went to Sea World, the zoo, stayed in a hotel, ran errands, cleaned out the house, went to Jaxon's last tball game, Monte played some golf, and we just hung out together.  It was awesome!
Here are the highlights:
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Sunday, June 24, 2012

Summer Week #3!

AAAHHHHHHHHH.. .It is already going by so very very fast :(.
I actually got some stuff done this week.  I am LOVING my list!  That reminds me that I need to find where I put my notebook.
Along with getting a few things done, we also went to two birthday parties this week!  Besides that, it was pretty low key.  We have been staying home a lot.  Gotta love that!  Quite the change from when school is in session.  We found out early on in the week that Monte would be able to take his vacation time this coming week.  Even though we had short notice we came up with a fun little vacation that the kids are ECSTATIC about!  We are going to go to San Antonio for a couple of days.  We will go to Sea World stay the night and then go to the zoo.  I am sure we will have a blast!  Monte hasn't taken a whole week off since Jaxon was born.  His bosses are amazing and we could not be more blessed.  Two of them gave us some money for us to enjoy on our vacation.  I am in tears as I write that.  Monte and I hope that one day when our kids are grown that we can bless a young family who is struggling and sacrificing to get by to raise there kids themselves.  It is so overwhelming to me how God can use people at the PERFECT time to meet a need or simply to shower with blessings.  We could not be more thankful.
So, at the beginning of the week Tatum walked out of the bathroom from brushing her teeth and said, "MOM!  I think Jaxon brushed his teeth with the medicine that was on the cabinet."
Here is said medicine:




I responded, "Oh no Tatum, I am sure he didn't because he would have complained about the way it tasted."  The next night Jaxon was taking a while in the bathroom to brush his teeth.  I decided to go in and rush him.  I opened the door and saw Jaxon holding the benadryl cream, lid off, and hands ready squeeze onto his tooth brush.  I said, "Jax!  WHAT ARE YOU DOING??"  Jaxon said very calmly, "I'm brushing my teeth."  I of course told him that was not tooth paste and then asked if he brushed his teeth with that last night.  No surprise at this point what the answer was.. but, it was "Yes."  Guess I should have listened to big sister!
One night this week we were sitting at the table eating dinner and Tatum was sing a song.  She randomly sings ALL THE TIME.  She has been stuck on two or three songs lately that she sings over and over and over.  Most of them she only knows two lines of.  So, those just get repeated.  This has been driving Jaxon crazy.  He asks her to stop all the time.  Being the older sibling that she is, that makes her want to sing even more.  Anyway.. back to my story.. She was singing at the table.  She stopped, laughed, and said, " I just can't get that song out of my head!!"  Jaxon quickly responded, "Then sing it in your head."  Honestly it was pretty hard not to laugh.
OH... and Tatum lost her 3rd tooth in one month!  I look forward to what next week will bring!




Monday, June 18, 2012

Summer Week #2!

Week number one was nice and relaxing.  Week #2 however was crazy and fun!  We did something every single day!  It was a blast.  Sadly I don't have a lot of pictures for this week because instead of living behind the camera I chose to just live and soak it in!
We started out our week by going to Sea World!  It was so very awesome!!  We got to go to the new water park (which I highly recommend).  Mom bought us tickets to Sea World during spring break and I told her I did not think it was worth the extra money for the water park.  Of course she did it anyway :).. and I am soooo glad she did!  THANKS MOM!  It is totally worth it!  On Tuesday we did not have tball practice, so a couple of friends from tball came out and we hung out at the creek.  We ate hotdogs, drank beer, and played some washers while the kids swam in the creek!  It was a lot of fun.  We had 6 adults and 8 kids!  What fun to have everyone hanging out.  Wednesday, we had our friends the Dearringers come out.  We died Emma's hair (oldest Dearringer kid) and my hair.  I have never done a box color before.  My hair is a little crazy.. but, I am getting use to it!  The kids (all 7 of them) played so good together.  It was SUCH a fun day!  Thursday we went to the movies to see Madagascar 3 and then had a tball game.  Both were so much fun.  On the way to the tball game Jaxon told us that he wished he had a game EVERY day.  I am so glad he loves it!  I hope this is "his" sport.  I love watching some baseball!  Friday we did playgroup and then came home and swam in our pool.  We are LOVING having a pool.  The kids can play for hours in there.  Saturday we went to another baseball game (machine pitch).  So.... busy busy busy.. but fun fun fun!
OH.. almost forgot.. we also got TWO more baby calfs this week!!  They are too cute.  I love watching the jump, run, and kick.  They are so playful.
Here.. I guess I have one tball pic for you: